its not easy being green

deep breath. ahhh. things have been very odd lately. i really really think it must be some external element. i feel like i have not been myself and it bothers. i am really stuck on what to do. do i get rid of this external element? or keep it up and hope things get better. the problem is it is having a bed effect on friendships and stuff. its the last thing i wanted. but it all seems too late. i just really don't know. i guess i have to take it day by day.